well i havent updated in forever, once again. i ususally only update when i have something to say... blah ( Read more... )

ok so im thinking that this will be the last time i update because of stupid reasons. so i thought i would close off with whats going on right now and say some things that i havent written about.

im still with john its been 7 months 4 days ago. we are doing awesome, i never wrote anything really about him before but i know i did write that i missed ( Read more... )

I FINALLY FOUND A COLOR FOR MY HAIR- ITS A ORANGISH REDISH COLOR

yes it will be awesome. cant wait

ok so now im even more confused with john and johnahtan. im starting to fall for john more and more and he is so sweet and nice and his family likes me and my mom likes him which is amazing because usually my mom dosent like my bf or gf. and then ( Read more... )

ok first thanx ryan for that comment (not being sarcastic) i agree with you!

today was a shitty day. last night i forgot to take my pills and so today i was shaking and feeling like shit and on top of it all i had to go to a family dinner. well its not my family but its johns family so basically yeah because they all tell me they love me and give ( Read more... )

ok so i realize i havent updated in awhile but i have a lot of shit on my mind and i just figured i might as well fucking right it on here.

ok so im with this guy john and johnathan didnt know until last night. and then after i told him he decided he wanted to tell me he loves me and me and johnathan have been friends for some time and we werent ( Read more... )

ok well ryan says its been my one month aniversary for updating my journal so i guess i will update ( Read more... )

i havent updated in awhile because i got in trouble for not going to class and if i keep skipping i have to go to court . ah so sadly i guess im going to class. i almost made it to all my classes today except for 4th period i thought i would start frest next week since i didnt go at all this week and 7th period i walked in and sat down then decided ( Read more... )

ive been dying away at school. i hate school i dont even go to my classes any more i just sit in the bathroom with meagan. me and ryan got in a argument because he thinks i got mad at him for not wanting to go to the haunted house, but i got mad at him for not telling me sooner and waiting forever to tell me when all along he knew he didnt want to ( Read more... )

today ahhh today ( Read more... )

this monday mourning i woke up motivated to make breakfast tacos and so i did. during the process of making them my mom decided she would take 3 to many pills and started freaking out and wanted us to sit there and hold her and tell her how much we loved her which i wasnt interested in at all. so she finally went to sleep ( Read more... )