just because I'm sometimes paranoid about this in the back of my head..

to anyone who is not on my friend's list....don't think that i'm a loser that never writes...cos yer WRONG! you just don't get to see it because you're not good enough. so how's that little poopy pants? yeah. i thought so. >:P

i feel really depressed. i want to feel better. i feel really unloved and uncared about. i think these are my "issues" to deal with. the fact that no one really loves or cares about me. the only reason it bothers me now is because i dont love and care about myself like i always used to when i was alone. now i'm not alone anymore and i'm too ( Read more... )

ihad a lot of dreams but brad is on the phone so i can't write them all down ( Read more... )

i had a lot of dreams last night ( Read more... )

and so it goes.

life.

i love being a stupid kid with my brad. he's talking about video games. how sweet. i miss sillyb high scvchool brad,. :)

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i think i just dont want to get sucked into this computer. is that it? i dont know really.

i hate writing this knowing you're the only one reading it... i feel sick. i feel sick i feel sick. god i feel sick. you let me down...i can't believe you did it. we'll die...someday... soon. this is unbearable...knowing...what it's like in there. i can't find my way...but stay in one spot...clinging to what i had. i'm not as strong as you... ( Read more... )

yeah...i feel like shit. i wonder if there'll ever be a time when i just...don't mess up? i mean...is the idea of me not ruining something even fathomable? i didn't think so. tonight has been shit...everyone is wanting to die and that's never a fun desire to share with...people...my tummy hurts. why do i have to feel so bad. i do i have to ( Read more... )