Jim and I have been married for 6 years now. I don't know what to say, I'm still completely in love with him. How could I not be? We have a house, an awesome dog, both have good jobs. I couldn't be happier.

This morning was the big day. He didn't show, of course. Had his mom represent him, which we all know, she couldn't do even if she had a POA. He had to appear by phone. He said a bunch of retarded shit. I told the judge that I didn't even want the alimony anymore. Zach goes 'Oh, well she doesn't want it anymore? Uh ok...' He's so fucking retarded. ( Read more... )

Well tomorrow is the finale of my divorce.  I keep hoping that Zach won't even show up.  But knowing him, he may just show up in uniform with his mommy or a recruiter backing him.  I hope to god he doesn't show.  I honestly don't ever want to see his face again.  Was hoping that he'd fall off the face of the earth and things would just move on ( Read more... )

Monday night was another nightmare.  Hannah decided that she wanted to be a bitch and talk back to her dad.  He took away her Ipod and then her phone.  She runs away into her bedroom to 'hide' like always and he chases after her letting her know what she's being punished for.  She's talking back to him the entire time and I'm just standing in the ( Read more... )

Let's start with Saturday night.  We come home from the shop, went to put the sub in the Jetta.  Joel and Kirk invited all of us to go to Dave and Busters for dinner and games.  Hannah says she doesn't want to go.  We get home and Jim took a good 20 mins getting her out of the house and into the car.  After arguing with her the entire way there, ( Read more... )

I've gained 10lbs in less than a month.  I guess it's eating for real that's making me gain this weight.  I need to hit the gym every other day or whatever, get back into shape.  Last night we took Rian to the skatepark.  They skated for a bit, I was goofing around on the jungle gym.  Hanging upside down on the bars like I used to.  God it took so ( Read more... )

Yesterday I called the courthouse to get a status update on my divorce.  Apparently since I filed the Amendment to the Divorce requesting maintenance (alimony) I was not able to file an amendment to the legal separation in time.  So pretty much I got denied on that part.  So I find out that I must set a hearing to finalize the divorce, which means ( Read more... )

Was awesome last night.  I was so happy I got to go with Jim.  He made my night.  We had SO MUCH FUN!  I'm glad he enjoyed himself.  It's a good start to doing things together.  God I love him so much.  He means EVERYTHING to me.  I can't wait to move into the house and start a real life with him.  Thank god for VWs.  LOL.

Ok so I moved in today.  The room is nice and roomy for me.  Even with all the band equipment in it.  LOL.  Other than that it's great.  I got my own bathroom, well I share it with Champ but still niiiiice.  Craig seems cool.  Can't wait to actually hang out with these guys.  LOL ( Read more... )

I feel so ugly right now.  I feel fat and super unattractive.  I don't know what it is.  Maybe it's because I don't have people telling me I'm sexy anymore?  Maybe it's because I don't think I'm attractive. maybe the fact that I weigh 160 fucking lbs!  Maybe because Alan made me feel very fat and ugly by only giving me shots of my back and me ( Read more... )