im still alive but im just not posting on here anymore untill things get a li more settled cuz im sick of this thing jinxing me!! if ya wanna contact me n c how life is goin either IM me at ILoveMyBBB11490 check out my myspace www.myspace.com/shanononon or just leave me a message here n ill eventually get around to checkin this out. i may post how ( Read more... )

yea so i barely write in here anymore cuz 1) no1 reads its and 2) its like a fuckin curse. everytime i write somethin good it always turns around the next day so i think im done writin bout the important stuff. i will write that stuff is actually startin to get a lil better even tho everything is sooo wrong still. i just cant wait till i move out ( Read more... )

so things lately are gettin worse and worse and makin me look foreward to movin out. i think im only gonna miss a few ppl cuz most ppl are forgettin bout me whereas others that i enevr thoguht would remember me are. im gettin so sick of how this life here is going and cant wait to get out and away. maybe then people will realize how much they miss ( Read more... )

so once again my life is slipping away. im really depressed bout school, my best friend is always so busy that i never get any time wit her, my other best friend is havin trouble at home n wit a girl n i dunno how to help him, im afraid of wha will happen if kyle gets accepted to RIT cuz i dont wanna leave this area just yet, im afraid ill continue ( Read more... )

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i havent been on in awhile cuz i had alot of things to deal with and they were alot more important than coming online. but basically i miss dave and i really wish i got to kno him better b4 he left this world. the only good thing that came out of his passin is that i grew closer to his brother n sister. i actually got to hug jeff and sarah. i just ( Read more... )

so yesterday i just finally just broke down n cried my eyes out all day n i felt like shit but then me n kyle go to talkin n i did alot of screaming n then there was some crying n then some listening n agreeing. now things r still crazy but i think things may be actually workin out for once. i also have been able to put all my pain aside to help ( Read more... )

honestly i have no idea how i still live my life to its fullest when i have constant crap pullin me down n kickin my ass. im seriously so sick of all this death around me and im announcing it here n now that IM DONE!! im so done wit this death shit so it better stop happenin. i really cant take losin ANOTHER person in my life. now its 3 in the last ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend i got alot closer with rob and i discover he is the best friend i've ever had in my life. he was there for me even tho it effected his life n ppl around him. i love my sister rob n i will do anything for him and i think i proved that this weekend also cuz i put aside my feelings n all the pain i was feeling to help him n val work ( Read more... )

definately had one of the shittiest weekends of my life and it is still continuing. i cant believe i dont trust him n i tink i may be "fallin outta love" if that even exsits.