i think i must officially stop listening to kate, ever.

i love her, but her ideas are a little fucked up.

here's to bein back in austin...

I cannot find solace in sleep.

i cannot run away.

I don't quite know what to do with myself.

And I am unbelievably angry at everyone and myself.

I feel like poison.

I wish I could go back to being little again, when I didn't know of such pain.

pretty much, my world has come crashing down.

i'm not sure if i can stand the weight.

The morning after my big night of partying has been more pleasant than I would have thought. No headaches, just fatigue really. I had a fucking awesome night ( Read more... )

I am exhausted ( Read more... )

MAN, I hate how myspace allows you to see if a message has been read or not ( Read more... )

It has become increasingly evident to me that nobody's experience is the same, nobody can tell another what to do in their relationships, it is honestly all our own, personal descision ( Read more... )

I keep thinking that if I just keep going, not thinking about all the tiny reservations entering my mind, that I will finally overcome what has been keeping me from happiness all along. I've tried to convince myself that it is I who has kept my life from being all that it could. I must be doing something that keeps boys from wanting to love me, ( Read more... )

It will be hard to get all of my conclusions out into this livejournal post. But I have to say, I've come to quite a few, and for my own benefit, I will do my darndest to get them out elloquently ( Read more... )

so, not to my surprise, i have found myself freaking out about my relationship with tony over the past couple of weeks. i've randomly found myself in a fit of destructive thinking and an inability to stay in one spot. for instance, i called a kind friend late late one night from a random, dark corner of campus, crying my eyes out, making no sense ( Read more... )