july will forever be a bittersweet month for me. tomorrow will be exactly one year since we lost one of our own. the memory of jon will always bring us close together again. no matter how far we always seem to drift from each other, jon will be the one thing holding our bond strong, as if we had never left. as if we were still walking through the ( Read more... )

i'm making xiao long bao right now for lunch and i'm waiting for the water to boil so i'm going to make a list of things i want to do ( Read more... )

in the past twenty-four hours, i have ignored three phone calls and two texts. not only that, i have failed to return the calls and texts. "forgot" or "slipped my mind," i suppose. one such text was from a name that took me five minutes to register who it actually was (horrible sentence structure.) trying to get me to go to huntington for something ( Read more... )

rufus wainwright plays in sf on the 3rd of august. he is amazing live, it would so be worth the trip. i want to gooooo!!

tonight i spent six hours straight crouched on the ground in my room. painting on a 24 x 30 canvas. mother. fucker. i showed james the digital version and this was his reaction:

james: dayuuummm
james: dude go to an art college!!

i now have paint all over my body. ughggggggggoawrejaireawjiraew i need a drink.

not really. but in two months, i would like to see these things in my posession:

1. canon rebel dslr 2. yamaha keyboard or something similar ( Read more... )

there's something incredibly comforting about having paint all over my hands. almost like my hands have been places and they tell a story. i think watercolors are definitely my medium of choice. what's funny is i didn't start using it on a regular basis until this year. this year i tried to free myself from the boundaries of realism and try to ( Read more... )

this is how my day went ( Read more... )

i think it's always night time when i feel most open in these entries. i just spent two hours changing the layout and colors of my background after not touching it for almost two years ( Read more... )

damnit ( Read more... )