What can I say expect that I'm sick and tired of how everybody's life is just so much better than mine. I'm not rying to rain on anybody's parade, but you think you have it bad and you don't. Does anybody know what it feels like, not being able to see your love day after day and having barely any conversation with him? I think not. See all you ( Read more... )

well i dunno where to start most of u know that i'm in prison the kind where the prison gaurds are your parents. well ashley thank u for including me on that one enrty! i'll be writing more! i promise! k well here is sum new news with that adam-kreepy stalker girl thing ( Read more... )

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HO! HO! HO! MERRY CHRISTMAS ( Read more... )

I was watching this movie and in it someone said, "The things your most afraid of, are usually most worthwhile." And that line really hit me, it made me stop and think. I am afraid of love, I am afraid of getting my heart broken. Getting into the relationship with Adam, really freaked me out. But I heard that line and I realized that Adam is ( Read more... )

Ok so i went shopping, then adam and i met up. well he started being a dick so i walked out. then he calls me and says "i'm over reacting and I guess i'll talk to you when i talk to you" so that just made me more fuckin pissed. so i turned around and went back to his place, walked in, threw his x-mas gift at him, then started walking out, but he ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. I got Mmy X-mas present from Ashley today. I love it. Its so beautiful. Then lunch was fun, especially finding out that a certain someone was playing footsie with a certain someone. Aww! How cute! After school I went to Noelle's house and we recorded short-films for pshychology. It was so fun. I had a blast. Then I wanted to ( Read more... )

I think maybe I've said too much. I don't want people to know about my problems, I'd rather hide behind a smile. I think I have pushed away the person I love the most, and thinking about that makes me depressed, and it makes me want to reach for my pin, so I can scrape it across my skin, but I'm not going to. I'm just going to have to cry. I'm not ( Read more... )

Its Saturday night, what is there to do? Nothing. Such hurtful things said to my face. I'm sitting here wanting to cry, but instead scraping the needle across my skin. The feel of the pain, replaces the tears, it is a good trade. And I like the designs that the red welts leave on my skin. The burn and pain will go away in a few days, but it reminds ( Read more... )

Well I came to learn last nite that my dad has "spies" at thrasherland, keeping an eye out for me. My dad says that some of the people I even talk to! YIKES! I don't know who they are! Good thing we didn't go out and smoke that one nite. So some guys hat have seen me said to my dad :"Hey I say your daugher out at the track!" But my dad says that he ( Read more... )