Its amazing how this week, for the passed 3 years has always been a hard one for me. I mean it has been what 3 years since the death of one of my best brothers. I do have to say I feel differently somewhat about it then I did before. I feel at peace, I have accepted it finally and more over accepted the fact that it was not my fault and I couldnt ( Read more... )

Have you ever just sat and thought about how much different life could be, for instance if u didnt meet someone at a certain time in your life and you met them at another. A person long gone is still with you to share in your life. Or even if you would have made a different choice and things turned out differently. Where would you end up? Would you ( Read more... )

I am sick of sitting here being all sad and stressed all the time, I am saposed to be having fun and I really am not. I just want everything to be alright and stop being so freakin mean so that there can be peace, Like I am about sick of being nice to everyone especially those they say "I dont even deserve a hand shake" like wtf is that? I am ( Read more... )

I seriously am miserable up here, there is just way to much pain and way to much going on here that I really cant handle it. Always people coming and going and never any time to myself, Not to mention I am hated on by at least one sorority girl a day and just made to feel like a piece of shit. I honestly and begining to think I dont belong and at ( Read more... )

I have changed...I know it, and alot of my close friends know it. I feel like I am a better person now then I have ever been in a long time. I feel from the bottom of my heart she had alot to do with it. She was the best thing that happend to me this summer because I was in a fucked up place. I dont know maybe it just was to much to fast. But I ( Read more... )

 The bar door swung closed behind me, and I let out a deep sigh. I could see my breathe infront of my face, the nights were getting colder around here and christmas was on the way. I didnt want to take a taxi home so I walked, it was only 10 blocks of so, and lord knows I could use some time to think.

The nightime streets were alight with the dingy ( Read more... )

I walked into the bar with not an ounce of excitement in my step. I knew what was going to be said and I hate when he points out my fuck ups. No matter how many of the boys I told, it was always gonna come back my fault, and I guess it should be I was lead on the Fertelli job and so all fuck ups come to me. If it wasnt for that damn rook Eddie, if ( Read more... )

I cannot believe that just happend, I am still waiting for someone to like slap me in the face and wake me up :-) But it did happen, I am just I cant even think of the words right now, but I guess that is a good thing. I am really happy right at this moment. She just makes me happy :-) 

There is honestly so many things running through my head right now, that my head is just spinning. I want to go back to school because right now I feel like I have momentum in my life, but then again I am really sad to do so at this point. I mean yea school is fun, but I have already done the college scene and its not that big a deal to me as much ( Read more... )

Have not had to much to write about in the last few days, I leave in like a week and a half for school and that makes me sad somewhat. I have been watching the Olympics alot and Idk what people say the Michel Phelps is an asshole and is on some kind of drugs, I am just glad he is on our team :) and on a littler notes Nicki comes home today hahah ( Read more... )