It's gonna be hard...

[sharpie334]

No matter how much I try its gonna be a long time before I can look at him without my heart breaking. Forgiving was easy because I love him more than anything. But its the knowledge that I have and they memory that makes me sad...

Comments

[curefreak]

Forgiven but not forgotten eh? I am so very sorry for the pain you are feeling.

[sharpie334]

Thank you for your sympathy. I know these feelings will pass and I will heal in time. Unfortunately for right now it's so devastating. Like everything you've invested your entire being into has all been a lie.

[curefreak]

It's great that you "can" see the future, as in the pain going. Right now you need to concentrate on you and now. Try venting on LJ, or, if you need a friendly ear, my email address is on my user page. Holding it in IS the worst.

HI

[alpinefragger]

im glad you are ok still i understadn sorry babe.........

Re: HI

[sharpie334]

I know you understand. Thanks. Just kick him in the shins for me, eh? Eventually I'll stop being FURIOUS!!! But for right now it feels kinda good being mad. Because when I'm around him I curb it because I promised to try and not dwell or bring it up. Trying to make it easier to move on...

[gunna_get_worse]

Hey Megan, its Rachel, so add me back please...

And yeah, being angry, it feels good. After a while that subsides though. I don't know how you are able to take him back like that....I wouldn't be able to just forgive like that. I would still be so much more angry than you seem.

But I don't want to feul the flames here by saying what I'd do.

Drop by my el-jay anytime you need anything or just to whatever.

♥

[i_blame_mommy]

i seem to be the only boyfriend that felt that they should have told their girlfriend

[sharpie334]

And I do appreciate that my love I do