note to self. even when starving..pace eating to prevent urge to vomit.

excuse me.

-curls over with stomach pain-

sigh so im considering deleting a couple of good friends off of my list on the friggen myspace thing. mainly because the bulletins posted are so god damn redundant its pitiful ( Read more... )

stop relying on others, even for a bit of help. People dont usually follow through.

i do feel this is valid information.

but never really know just how bad it is until you talk to the people that neglected you. their disconcern about you and so forth. -shakes head-

how annoying.

cant believe its that time again. once again the month passed by pretty fast. well not as fast since i dont have a job =\ but the only reason why i dont have a whole lot of reason to celebrate this year is over the holiday season there was typically a bunch of people i was supposed to visit or hang out with and didnt get to. I hardly saw s00san at ( Read more... )

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so yeah the holidays pretty much suck ASS when your jobless. i mean being jobless sucks period (course having a job to begin with may or may not suck depending on the job you have) But at least you have the opportunity to purchase things you may like ( Read more... )

i am confused ( Read more... )

i cant lose it. not yet. i have to keep strong. i know things will work. i need to use common sense and think things fall between cracks because they dont.

i refuse to let this fall to pieces. i absolutely refuse to.

im analyzing myself so frantically now. I have to stop.
Im so afraid of losing her. im so god awfully afraid.

just watching pistolz go out the door to work for some reason depresses me at times. not because of money issues etc. but i guess i just worry cause i know the pressures of the workplace, how people can be, along with a few other things. I guess im just being over protective but i honestly wish i made more then enough so she could just go to school ( Read more... )