I spent a lot of years being somewhat miserable.
I think that's over now.
I didn't want to say so too soon in case it wasn't true.
I didn't want to say so to anyone else, because there is some stigma with having been depressed... how weird is that?
But yeah, I'm pretty okay now.

I made him say it. I made him apologize for the abuse. I made him admit that it happened. I made him tell me he knew how much I had done for him. I heard in his voice that it was real ( Read more... )

My head is caught up in some ridiculous notion that the right words, time, or circumstance will show him how badly he treated me and he will feel remorse ( Read more... )

Okay, let's check the facts ( Read more... )

I am freaking out a little about burning man. I don't wish that I had started planning earlier or anything. I don't really fear that I'll forget something important. I think it's just inevitable nervous energy. I caved into my desires and got new stompy boots. My hair is magenta. I went easy on the sewing. I still need to get food and water ( Read more... )

i give up

It's important to know the song you want to play at your funeral. I have been convinced for a long time that I want "theme from retro" by blur to play at mine. when i decided this, i was sitting in my room at my mom's house. it was summer, the shades were down, and i was constructing a small building out of used batteries and elmer's glue. i ( Read more... )

I am thoroughly uncomfortable being in my own body. Roommates woke me up about 11. Figured it was late enough that I couldn't really complain. Jenna laughs loudly pretty much constantly. I guess I didn't notice that as much when I was in a better mood. I feel exhausted and agitated. Full of energy and empty of it at the same time. Due to the ( Read more... )

my thoughts are misguided and a little naive. i got myxomatosis, i got myxomatosis ( Read more... )

I don't care if my heart freezes over and I never feel anything ever again. I'd welcome the change.