...I really really do...this world is just too fucked up for me to progress in it. I don't know who I am anymore or what my fucking purpose on the planet is. Sometimes I do wish for an early leave of this planet because nothing I've EVER wished for or prayed for or whatever, is happening. Life just sucks and I wish I could end it all but I don't ( Read more... )

Well, my subject title just about says it all. I've just about given up on practically EVERY DAMN THING IN MY LIFE, though I haven't given up on Dean and I know a large part of me never will but I know I need to try to have fun in my life without him but I don't want to and that part of me always wins over the part that knows I needs to have fun. I ( Read more... )

Woke up early this mornin ( Read more... )

Today I had an interesting dream. I wouldn't call it a good dream, I'd call it more of an erotic/naughty dream. Ok, but before I explain what my dream consisted of, I'd better tell you about the surroundings I was in, it'll help you to better understand why what happened in my dream, happened. I was driving home from tanning and I was listening to ( Read more... )

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I'm not a perfect person ( Read more... )

Last night I had possibly the shortest conversation with what I thought was the man I wanted to be with now; Sam. But he apparently didn't, he fucking brushed me off like I was nothing. This is our much anticipated conversation ( Read more... )

Have I mentioned that I'm newly obsessed with a new guy...Tyson Ritter of The All-American Rejects...damn...he's so cute!!!...There's this guy at my school, Roman Fanelli, who looks just like him...or so my cousin thinks he does and once I really thought about it, he kinda does. I think Brytt is mad at me but I'm not for sure. She hasn't really ( Read more... )

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Today I went and applied for a job at Target. My best friend Megan told me I should because they need people and because she doesn't really like to hang out or talk to the people who work there. She said that I should go work there so she can talk to me instead of everyone else that she doesn't like, which is sweet. After I meet Amy, a manager, ( Read more... )