holy. wow. that hurt so bad.i really feel like giving up on life itself. i have officially 0 online friends since i truely quitted fiesta. i have no offline friends. im alone. truely... no one that can even give me time of day. i thought that if i held on to one idea, just one solid idea, and did whatever possible to make it happen, that maybe i ( Read more... )

in 5 years:

- become a warrant officer.
-switch MOS's
- obtain e-6
- pass BNOC
- be selected for warrant

- get a associates degree
-complete fafsa
-enroll in a college
-apply for GI BILL

- be organized
- clean and maintain house
-organize house

- be financially secure
- pay all debts on credit cards
- have an separate untouchable fund.
- have a separate car fund
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im so fucking frustrated.... ive got no control over anything and its discouraging to say the least. im so glad... i used to bear grudges all the time. i learned to just shake it off, no matter how badly the words cut me. maybe thats the problem, it looks like im not taking anything to heart, so they just say more and more hurtfull words to me. it ( Read more... )

*points down* that was actually written 2-3 months ago ( Read more... )

heh, i worked 21 hours straight... had 3 hours of sleep, and now im ready for 10 more hours.really, what happened....? its shit like this that makes me question why i always put myself  through tough times on purpose like this. let me be honest with what ive been doing with every single second of my spare time ( Read more... )

waa i hate my life. T_T

yeah i went to church wednesday... and sunday... it made me think about God and my life again. i started analizing every single aspect of the services, every word they said... under clear, untainted "glasses." the way things are done should be changed....  i should like... take notes on my thoughts in church and write them down, so i can later ( Read more... )

broke 1.5k overall rank!

according to statistics im better than 99.8716% of everyone in average rank and 99.8846% or everyone in overall rank. fun fyi XD

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its 4. i gotta wake up at.... 5:30? LOL. btw, FYI: im not writing to any specific person. its a journal ( Read more... )