Well it's been a while. What better time than now, that we're drifting aimlessly in the middle of the Persian gulf, to unload what's jumbled up in my mind ( Read more... )

Here I am laughing at myself for my decisions lately, not thinking them through and planning escape plans. I told myself when I joined the Navy I would never get involved with people I work with. There I was involved with a female on board, that ended in pure disaster. Luckily I prepared for it and the blast bounced harmlessly off. People creating ( Read more... )

My head's fucking swimming. I have no idea what i'm going to do if she turns out to be pregnant. My mom says don't freak out but jesus christ this shit can't be happening to me. I can't afford to take care of myself none the less two other people. It's not that I don't love her or won't take care of the kid, my kid, but i'll be damned it won't be ( Read more... )

Well not much has changed. Still livin' the life in the Navy hating every day I wake up and go to work more and more each day. Just broke up with my girlfriend because I couldn't handle it. She got pissed cause I didn't call her, though I was puking every couple minutes or sleeping it off all day. Then again, shit happens I guess. Other than that ( Read more... )

Last night I came to a conclusion that I never thought my pride would let me conclude. For 19 years my foundation for life has been a one man rodeo that I led, competed in, and always won for myself. I never thought throughout growing up that I would stoop as "low" as to need someone else. I don't mean need their help or their presence but need in ( Read more... )

I'm tired of these damn games. I really am. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Lure myself into a false sense of "love" or "lust" and then let myself fall on my face just to get up and try it again? I do stupid things just to get the attention from certain girls that I don't need attention from. Then they act like I did something wrong when I stop ( Read more... )

Monday, I'll be in Hawaii. Relaxing on the beach, drinking Tequila, and livin the life of a single Sailor. I'm happy with that. I really am. I've given it waaaay too much thought. There's a couple girls in my life that I was willing to give it up for. Everything. Then I came to a self realization that, no, it's not worth it. A couple of my buddies ( Read more... )

Sometimes I have to step back and realize it's not my life people are fucking up, it's their own. A friends, a good friend, bootcamp buddies, going to marry some girl who's done nothing but cause hell between him and another one of his friends. Girls like that don't last long. Now i'm not saying they won't be happy but hell, don't be an idiot. "I' ( Read more... )

Dear Myself ( Read more... )

Yep, here we go again. Once again everything in my life seems to come complete circle and fuck me in the ass when least expected. Lets start with the bullshit first.My "4th in class" Turns out to be really like 8th or 9th due to my keyboard prank. Now most of the things I do in life I have the "I don't regret it, it was fun and worth it" kinda ( Read more... )