this weekend i went to new jersey ( Read more... )

quite often i feel like im not reaching a certain potential. and it's a mix of being held back, and holding myself back that keeps me from said potential. in so many sense i honestly dont know what i'm capable of. i always find myself "ok" with the current situation, but honestly i want more. music, school, relationships. i want to thrive in ( Read more... )

remember when livejournal was the most happening thing ever? and you could check it religiously and get all giddy about people commenting your posts and stuff. and there would be 324353 updates to read every night ( Read more... )

i exist
so acknowledge me
regardless, i exist

im exhausted in many different ways
this is ok
i am unsure about a great chunk of everything
this is less ok

but not the kind of unsure that just "oh many things could happen"
it's hesitance in my decisions, my thought process,
and i display it, i communicate some message based on this, i dont know what it is

oh please
piles of leaves

to miss your hands

detached
yep

holy shit
the disco before the breakdown

i bought an ipod today. checccck

im looking around for things to occupy me and make me feel like a productive lil human

i just woke up from a nap kinda

whenever i eat i dont feel well after its lame cuz i like to eat/feel well