I would have killed myself if I knew this is were my life would be when I tried telling myself how great my future would be.

In all reality I'm only me sometimes. There's an idea of who I am but I am lost. I am an idea that tries to be accepted.

Grandpa and now Grandma have both passed. I know that's life but I was extremely close to them. I am no longer with Jill, she cheated on me and is now married to someone else with a daughter. The girl that seemed so awesome after her turned out to be horrible and cheated on me with at least two other guys. Most of my friends now have kids. I have ( Read more... )

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Alright...well it's been a while since I last updated in here. Jillian just left on Sunday to back up to school, but she was here for the Thankgiving holiday. It was great to try to spend as much time with her as possible...she is SO amazing!!! For Thanksgiving we went to both of our families to eat and see people, which was lotsa fun cause we both ( Read more... )

I miss my baby SOOOOOOOOOOO much!!! Gosh this is hard sometimes, but I know in the long run it is worth it. But from looking at it where I am now it's really hard. I love you SO much baby!!! I'm about to go into work in a bit, but it's SO weird not having that sheer thrill of knowing that when I get off I will rush to come see her. At least I will ( Read more... )

I love you angel!!! I can't wait for Cedar Point tomorrow with you!!! Congrats on your car too!!! Kisses baby!!!

To day is Me and Jill's 10 month Anniversary!!! I'm SO happy!!! Kisses baby!!! I'm gonna get some food now...I'm starving!!!

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I'm gonna get going to bed soon, I just wanted to say :hi" to everyone. I'm excited that summer is coming (it seems like it is here right now). I got to play some hockey yesterday which was great!!! But I got to realize I need some conditioning to get back to the shape I was in, I mean like cardiovascular wise. I was so out of breath when I played ( Read more... )