I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz ( Read more... )

I want a love
that makes me dizzy
that spins voodoo
buzzing in my ears
tingling in my toes

I want to see his smile and stop
breathing, stop thinking, skip the heart beating
for a second or three

I want a warm glowing aura, dripping sweet
with honey falling from our lips locked
I want the world
to riot and it be quiet
while I'm focused only on him

hazy ( Read more... )

you are out there somewhere, I know
because when the night is hushed and
the stars are still
I pause and hear your heart
beat across unknown miles,
the soft breeze is carrying your breath,
whispering it in my ear,
as if you
were
here, next to me, sleeping silent and sweet
as if you
were
at all

and I know you know I am
because you can feel this poem
flowing ( Read more... )

is this really what i want ( Read more... )

I want to settle somewhere
where my soul settles into the soil
where my bones sink to the rhythm
of the hum of the forest, a silence
salient and sweet

I want to breath in the moist matter, the exhalations
of leaves, the whispers of the brook, and the quiet tenderness
of a flower opening to the dawn. around me abounds life,
unafraid, simple, and untethered ( Read more... )

i could love you

i would love you.

i do love you.

wholly, passionately, and with every ounce of dedication that can be wrung from my swollen heart.

the queen has found her king.

I WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. I WILL NOT LET MY ANXIETY MAKE ME BEHAVE THIS WAY.

i will let my anxiety guide me into productive, loving, giving outlets. i will focus my nervous energies into challenging myself and fulfilling goals.  i will use my weaknesses as my strengths. and i will have what i want. i want peace. i want calm. i want endless loving ( Read more... )

anxiety, you are an illusion. i'm creating you; i can cast you away.

i don't have to feel like this.

i choose PEACE and HAPPINESS and CALM.

it's a beautiful day, and i will not let you ruin it.

this is going to be big.

but i'm surprisingly calm.

we can do this.