My heart is racing.... and i cant seem to explain why. I just miss him. everything about him. espcially his voice. Its been 2 weeks now that he been doing inventory now 5am-1pm most days and its driving me crazy at first it seems to be ok but now he works mornings and i work nights. and i just misss him! :( sigh

Everything seems to be fine and then i swear in a matter of a second it changes to crap. Like everything just fucking goes away. im starting to think i cant take it anymore. i mean theres so much someone can take till they blow up right? sigh i dunno...

SO im in Port ST lucie (PSL). Wheeeee im so excited... not. it sucks i miss EVERYONE. I wish I was home. =/ but to be completely honest with everyone Im taking it better then I expected to. I thought it was gonna be alot harder leaveing everything behind especially josh and my 2nd home. =P but as much as i miss them. im not being a big baby about ( Read more... )

Hi everyone!!!!. Its been months since i actually write an "entry"... so here goes nothing ( Read more... )

why is it so hard to trust ppl now a days? you know? you tell them something and to keep it between the 2 of you and all of a sudden you find out the whole world knows. what he fuck is up with that?

Im really hate the fact that whenI hear the words port st lucie my eyes start tearing up. =/

so.... i graduate today and i do admit i was excited for a while.... but then he (josh) had to fuck things up like always..... and yet i still love him anywho....

IM GRADUTATING!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEE

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE!!!

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Today im supriseingly haveing a very good day at school. for starters 2nd hour was quite interesting well I have no idea what went on in class but I got to open up Alex! .... Finally. It took me long enough Oh well I feel relieve of course. I mean its still not the same like it use to be but i guess its a strat! im so happy. I miss Josh terribly ( Read more... )

Im happy to hear that everyone is doing great! Im glad that Kelso along with Jon had a great winter or holiday start! Lol. Me on the other hand...Im stressed out.. School, keeping up on me and josh, graduating decideing if to stay near home (FIU) or far far away Ucf (orlando) Whether I should leave all my loved ones. Or stay. whether Life is gonna ( Read more... )