it happens when you go...blue autumn.

The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts...my head is a carousel of pictures,the spinning never stops. I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader ( Read more... )

What do I feel? Is it reciprocated? I don't know what I want. everyone seems to know what they want but I don't. I should have a passion but I don't.
I wonder when I'll have to let go.

after six exhausting hours of prom dress shopping, I finally ordered one. all the ones I wanted in my size were gone, so I had to order a 6 (drats) but it's a corset back. So that my dress will not fall down. damned half asian genes! it's pink and poofy and not 'hollywood glam' themed or whatever the heck that is but I like it. AND YOU'D BETTER ( Read more... )

hmmm...feeling a little insecure.

pajama game tonight! it's going to be sucktastic. mark will be there so I'll be fine; otherwise I'd be miserable. it really is quite miserable.

I get to be with him today, hopefully.

yesterday was great...I went to the beach with mark; his friend greg was supposed to be there but he never really showed up...
I am working on being less self conscious and more...initiative.

It's going great, with you and me.

so it's settled now, in a good way!