There are softer parts of a dog,

Parts easier to access,

Parts that squish, made of silk, full of wiggle,

Parts that defy the laws of gravity,

But the golden standard

Lay in petting a dog’s belly.

The belly rub belies complete trust,

Full disclosure,

No fear, no excuses, no compromises,

No shame, no self-consciousness,

Only utter joy, comfort, and intimacy.

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I made it through another court hearing. I go back again November 26th. Nothing is decided except that despite my record not showing my previous DUI conviction, I must report it or be a perjurer to get into a diversion program. What that means, really, is I’m up for 2-3 days probably of jail time and some community service. All while hiding it from ( Read more... )

This week was a sea of juxtapositions ( Read more... )

So let's get to the heart of this, shall we ( Read more... )

Keeping small promises to yourself that are on the theoretical action plan is a solid step toward actually believing you can accomplish what you’ve said you want to do. I’ve done that today. I wrote 515 words.

I have a hard time believing in myself. I struggle with the concept of self-worth. In creative arenas, I tend to go for only those things I ( Read more... )

I'm here for two reasons ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream wherein I asked Matt if we could talk about getting back together. He hesitated and then told me that he was already dating someone new. I asked her name - to make it more real for me to accept. And he told me her name was Paz and she was incredible and all these wonderful things were happening in his life ( Read more... )

I'm, uh... I'm not going to say "back," per se, but I am here. today. tonight. what have you. I read my last ten entries and, wow, life has certainly changed. in drastic, ridiculous ways. but my punctuation and lack of actual coherent sentences has not. sadly ( Read more... )

Benazir Bhutto is dead.

So my mind is melting. Does anyone else remember a movie about a girl (I think she lived in Australia) who lived with her uncle (maybe) on an island and she had a pet sloth and made friends with a dolphin? The movie was about the dolphin. It was animated, made in the 80s, probably. Her name was Marina.