When You Close Your Eyes, And Take A Breath

Reaching this place is harder

Longer.

The paths are worn too thin

Just like the air.

Leaves me gasping.

But every breath is Your name

So I open wider.

It's time for deep breaths,

Desperate fingers.

I grasp at this moment of peace,

Closed eyes.

Soft sighs.

Dreaming of you, of us.

Remembering the part of my soul,

That ( Read more... )

I'm Sorry That I Couldn't Get To You

As always, for Chad.

I am building now.
On these foundations
However ruined and old.
The roots are planted,
And deep, on good soil,
Tended so carefully.

However unfathomable ( Read more... )

Shadows and Stones

My knees run like sand

I retch the gravel

From long ruined foundations

So precious, but easy to unravel

The castle we dreamed of building

Where we once stood

Nothing now but the blood on that ground

Where my mother once wished that we could

She spread her arms with promises

Broken before leaving fingertips

Whispers fuel my tired, weeping ( Read more... )

If I Scream Loud Enough Will The Heavens Hear Me?

I breathe.

I found this breath hidden,

Deep in the nightmares I can't

Scream myself awake from

You are comfort there

As I dive off these cliffs

As I destroy these cities

As I fall into the oceans I know

Are swallowed with sharks

That mean me to die

And even now,

Every tear is a memory that I know

You share, ( Read more... )

When I reach for you
Because the pain is too much,
Or the fear is consuming, blinding
Left me paralized by my humanity
When I come to myself I find,
Your hand has never left mine

I Can't Help Myself From Looking For You

So the final faith finds it's end.

Long and fast, hope wilting before me.
I prefer closed eyes,
I long for an oblivious mind,
I remember a secure life.
A memory close to my soul
When questions were just as complicated,
But the answers were just as simple
And there was no hurt in them.

Still I felt that each was a ( Read more... )

Memories of a Sister

My breath is full of the salty ocean.
Such a deeply known Lover of ours.
I look out towards the sun
Light fading with compassionate slowness
Behind the silhouette of our crouched adventures,
Building endeavors.
Our chasing the tails of the retreating waters
With laughter, back to the source.
Or braving her waves in higher surf
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I Have Walked To The End And Left Only My Tears In The Void

Here it is,
That I still breathe.
Found me retching in the horrific leftovers,
Barest remains of nightmares
Half remembered, wholly feared.
Violent slaps of awareness
Rousing my perspective.
I pour knowing into my
Restless fingertips, slitted eyes
Ablaze from the desperate reintroduction
Light to ( Read more... )

You Will Feel Me With The Fear Of Your Dying HeartSick within the sulfur ( Read more... )

The Desperate Act Of A Willful Soul

I am waking here
In this now that is not a nightmare
Lived it in my dreams
Fighting it now
I am waking
Groping and disbelieving
Here

There is no time for fear
Courage dictates what we must refuse
The having gets easier with the keeping
Is needed for this waking
Here

It is in this instant
Terrifying whirl of confusion
Horror ( Read more... )