I swear I feel so out of it and alone and just blah. I know I know, poor pitiful me again. I feel so sick to my stomach, I dont know why. I feel like I have had so much go on this weekend and the one person that I wanted to talk to about it wasnt there. I feel all selfish. And I dont want to feel that way...what to do, what to do? I have the ( Read more... )

Oh my God. There are so many parties going on this weekend. I just feel so blah. I didnt attend any of them. Partially because I had to work and partially because my Father the Devil. Anyways my Dad isint stupid, Mert had a keg party that I was invited too. Friday and Saturday, but I heard Saturday they couldnt even find the damn hose for the keg. ( Read more... )

Ok so I know I have talked about this more than once but it has come to me that I really have grown up. I have my immature moments with my friends but hey who doesnt? For the most part I think I am mature. My priorities are straight now. I have more things to do than gossip about people.

Ok so I was late the first day of school... along with the rest of the week too. Ha I have been late everyday for school for the past week. How shitty. Oh well. School. bleh. So yeah congrats to Ashley on her new black mustang...its very pretty by the way. Went to Ba's play football game tonight. It sucked. Of course. I sold ads for annual staff... ( Read more... )

So what is TOO friendly? I mean I catch all the friendly "flirting" and that kindof stuff. But how do you know when someone has gone too far? I guess its kindof obvious. It's just if you are going to put up with it or not? I have decided that it is time to grow up. I want a relationship. I want someone that trusts me, as for my friends that are ( Read more... )

So I have totally figured out that all these topics I want to write about I just cant bring myself to type them. I mean like real problems...etc etc...Not like highschool drama shit. I mean real "life problems!" I just cant do it. I feel the need to write about meaningless bullshit. All the time. I always find the most important things to talk ( Read more... )

I have babysat all day...and I am so tired. A one year old and eight year old. UGGGG!!!! I wish I could have seen my man today...tear...By the way, I have sat on my ass for three days without doing anything. Except working. And that doesnt count. So.... I go to my moms Friday, so that means lots of QT with that special someone. YAY!!! BTW...Paul, I ( Read more... )

So me and One Other got into a discussion of jealousy and possesivness. It was wonderful. We totally connected in the convo. We understood eachother. We talked about the fact that you cant be jealous of your significant others friends(of the opposite sex)We talked about jerks and how they fall. That is so true. You cannot be a jerk and get girls... ( Read more... )

I have worked nine hours and I am ready to CLIP myself... I am seventeen and I work the fucked up hours. Imagine that. Humph. Its ok. I get paid...not enough though. Thats all I did today... Blah ( Read more... )

I FEEL SO STUPID AND NUMB,,,,BLAH BLAH.... I JUST FEEL BLAH!!!!!!! DAMN HUMANITY... DAMN IT ALL!!!!!!!!