Hi, I'm having a positive day today, that's good isn't it? I don't get them very often, so a positive day is wonderful. I've only worked a 4 hour shift (still enough to totally fuck me off but I managed to get out of there before it added to my permanent state of complete violent anger) I'm in the library with Laura, they've done it all up and I ( Read more... )

So it's 3 months since my dad died, I'm doing ok I suppose, I miss him like crazy. After the funeral I couldn't bring myself to come here and write about it, or about Christmas, or New Year (what's the point of them when a quarter of my family isn't here anymore?). It was his birthday on Monday, that was difficult, felt so weird to not be out ( Read more... )

i dont understand how the sky hasnt caved in, i dont understand how the world hasnt stopped turning, i dont know how the sun can keep shining ( Read more... )

this is the hardest thing i'll ever have to write ( Read more... )

my dads in hospital again, got taken in at 3am this morning, couldnt breathe, wont take his bloody medicine, im more annoyed at him than anything, hes been given steroids to take the swelling in his lungs down (dont ask how, i dont know) it had given him his appetite back, made him feel better, but still he refused to take them all, hes supposed to ( Read more... )

Ages since ive written in this, had too much going on, too many things in my head ( Read more... )

because i made a mess of the last one, i made a mess of everything, i wrote things about people that shouldnt have been said, well, a lot of it was my honest feelings, but maybe i shouldnt have put them in a place that was so accessable, and when i get going i know i tend to go over the top, say things i know i dont mean, but thats just the way i ( Read more... )