i have a new username;

and________bang
(8 underscores)

ill add you guys, so add me back please!!

do you know how crushing it feels when you lose the one thing that means the most to you?
i try so hard, and all i get is hurt.
I dont know what to do, or say, and i want to fix something thats un-fixable.
This is going to be the last time that i ever give so much to someone who doesnt care.
Im so out hope.
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im back.

tomorrow it looks as if i may be going to skool.

at least i get to see stephen afterwards. and the show is this friday kids, so i better see you there.

the vacation was a little more than i could handle, but i did get some super rad pics!

so much to do, and its already 8pm.

ta-ta <3

Stephen is supposed to call me tonight after practice and come over. I really need to see him. Its been almost a week, and i feel like im going to die. Man, oh man, if he forgets to call me, im going to cry. Last night i had a really shitty night. An enormous fiasco with my mom, and Stephen was unsure if we could see eachother today. i literally ( Read more... )

YAY!

THANK GOD EVERYTHINGS FINE!

HES SO GREAT!

<3

stephen hasnt called. i was hoping he would, so i could see him today. but i guess this just goes to show how much he cared. and i suppose this is better to happen sooner, rather that later.

this is one of the most immature things about "relationships", and i cant believe im participating in it. gah! the whole im not calling you, you can call me ( Read more... )

i called fernando and straightened everthing out with him. i hate feeling like a mean person. (especially when he is so nice.) hopefully that will help change my recent karhma ( Read more... )

alot has gone on.

a show, that sucked.
a mexican bitch-boy, who sucks.
an apology, that sucked.
skool in 2 days. damn, that really sucks.

im sad. maybe goodwill can cheer me up. new shit always does the trick. i want a new purse. this sucks.

and just for the record; suck(s).

<3 BLAH!

tuesday stephen came over. we just sat at my house all day doing nothing. 'twas fun ( Read more... )

yesterday i went, and i did.

the results are dramatic.

( observe... )