When you start to second guess a person's feelings for you (a person whose feelings you never doubted before), I believe, that's when yours for them have magnified. It's the point where you actually truly care if they do disappear, the point where you wonder what you'll do when they're gone. It's the point that you have realized you have become ( Read more... )

There are things I could tell you. Things that would make you angry. Or jealous. But probably just angry. I don't tell you these things for my own good and a little for yours. It's 6:46am, way too freaking early for me to be up writing a livejournal entry...but here I am ( Read more... )

I feel like I've lost a part of me, and I know that I have.

+ I want to try out for Guys and Dolls ( Read more... )

McDonald's McCafe has amazing hot chocolate. Try it.

Sometimes I look at her pictures just to remind myself that I'm 20 times prettier than she will ever be ( Read more... )

So I'm still sick. I had to leave work early, and I went back to the doctors today because the antibiotic they gave me wasn't working. Today they gave me some new stuff plus oxycodone for my pain and some dramamine for my nausea. I was definitely needing somethingIn other news, I'm trying to get my life back in track. It's a lot harder than I could ( Read more... )

There are so many memories tied up in me. At times, like now, they are kicking and screaming and begging for me to relive them. To rehash them. And it's the little things. As I have said many times before. It's the little things that get me. My initials. The tear in the mattress. The absence of you. Your smell on over 50 pages of white paper. I'm ( Read more... )

When you quit something, like smoking or drinking or cussing. Or people. The only way to do it is cold turkey. None of that less and less each day bullcrap. You've got to make a complete 180 degree turn.Otherwise you'll keep smoking. You'll drink again. You'll swear. So that's what I'm doing with you. Dropping you, cold turkey. No more of this ( Read more... )

It's 1:47pm. I'll have to write this entry fast because I have to be in my World Religions class by 2. Ugh. It's okay though, I don't do anything in the class except read whatever book happens to be at my disposal, which currently is The Blind Assassin. Exciting ( Read more... )