AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH life sucks and thats all i have to say for now!

I am feeling a lil better thanks to Dolly :) i wuv you! i need to get all this feeling out of me i mite burst soon *sigh* hope for the best

Amanda came and so did Chelsea, Chelsea tried to get me to say i was a cutter but Amanda knew it was more then that she just looked at me with those eyes that make me die over and over and i wanted to cry but i did not and i cant now i think i am past the point of crying there is nothing more to do but ... and i am trying but i just dont see any ( Read more... )

Still nothing from Amanda went to church this morning but did not go tonight wish i did she is coming over in the morning to "talk" yeah right anways i dont know what i am going to say i always go over things in my head and i did not so now she is gonna come over and i am going to be like uh duh um god hate myself ( Read more... )

Well i was upset about amanda so i sent her a text message that said "are you mad at me" and she said back "about what?" and i was like i dont know and she was like i dont know so that was it and i started to think when i asked her that before when she was NOT mad at me she said no hun i am not or something like that so i sent her another text and ( Read more... )

Well people lie and people die but i am gonna die because of a lie well I had Rob Im Amanda to ask her what she thought about homosexuality and well here is what happend ( Read more... )

I think i am gonna be sick why does life suck sooo mcuh i am cold!

why only do people kill themself i mean i have tried but wtf your gf dumps you and you kill yourself? AHHHHHHH He was only 17

Fuck it.....

AHHHHHHHHHHH my mom told me that she cant go to church tomorrow but i can go how can i tell her she has to go cause she needs to talk to the pastor i mean FUCK this always happens to me AHHHHHHHHHHHH i gonna go cry and other stuff ugh my mom has most of my shit oh well i will find something AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

I just bit my tongue and it kinda hurts Lol It's really cold but I am still happy a lil nerves but yeah is it normal to shake? maybe that is just cause i am cold i mite go to the mall cause i did not get to go last night but thats ok I just have to take stuff back i don't really need anything or want maybe i will get a CD with the lil money i have ( Read more... )