i can't take it anymore. i'm moving on. i can't handle you making me feel like shit all the time when i did nothing wrong. i hate feeling like i always have to impress you, or compete for your attention. that's not how it should be. i mean, we're only best friends. and yeah, i like you. but not anymore. i can't do that to myself. i thought you were ( Read more... )

ughhhhhhhhhh. i hate feeling like this. i like you, that's not a doubt in my mind. and we both say it wouldn't have happened sober. but, i can't help feeling a little betrayed. if we're going to be nothing more than "just friends", then tell me why you initiated the hand-holding? and i'll never forget last year. and you're a cuddlebug. it's just so ( Read more... )

we've all drifted. and i miss you guys a whole lot. but i've also realized that i'm not as dependent on you as i thought i was. two of you, i could live without. as mean and cold as that sounds. the other one, i couldn't live without. and it's not who you think it'd be.

sometimes i miss you guys. but other times, i'm glad we're like this.

you two are awesome. like, absolutely awesome. i can't wait to live with you guys. i'm so sorry about all of the confusion. i blame my parents because they don't want to see me leave. everything will be figured out shortly though.

i just spent the last twenty minutes reading through old entries in this journal. more than 50% of them are about you. i hate it. i hate it so much. we're so bad for each other. the only reason why we keep doing this is because it's familiar. it's comforting. we're used to it. i can't keep doing this to myself. yes, i care about you. i care about ( Read more... )

it's really annoying how you're acting about this. yes, he was drunk. he didn't mean what he said. but you're blowing things way out of proportion. completely cutting him out of your life? isn't that a bit extreme? he's one of your best friends, and you know it. there's no need to go this far because he said he wanted you to leave. he. was. drunk. ( Read more... )

i don't know what you want from me anymore. if this is how you want it to be, this is how it's going to stay. i know you'll come back eventually. you always do. we always do. but not if it's going to be like this again. i can't deal with it. for the past few days, it has consumed me. i even had a dream about it last night. you threw me through a ( Read more... )

i just wish you'd realize how amazing you are. how beautiful you are. how i'm here for you every single time something goes wrong. i care way too much about you, and i'm aware of it and what it does to our relationship. i don't know what else to do because i don't know how else to show you that i care. just once, i want you to tell me how much you ( Read more... )

i seems like you've been avoiding me lately. are best friends supposed to avoid each other?

i'm sorry about the way i acted today. we're still bifflz, and i still luh you more than life. i'm really sorry i was a bitch.