Comments | shellboa67: GRRR

shellboa67

GRRR

Sep 11, 2006 23:50

I am sick of the stupid reflux thing or my whatever-the-heck-is-going-on ailment. It's bad today (I forgot to take the Aciphex this morning). The gastro guy thinks it's not reflux but he's going to do an ECG, stomach biopsy and PH probate at the end of the month. If nobody can figure out what's going on, then I could end up with permanently damaged ( Read more... )

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xsweetlilnikkix September 12 2006, 11:37:20 UTC

I never knew how bad this was, hun. I don't really know much about it but how does it make you feel.. physically? Like.. does it hurt? Sorry I just haven't really heard of this before.

pssh no pity party here. Something's bothering you, you go right ahead and talk about it! That's why it's your journal. :)

shellboa67 September 12 2006, 13:59:56 UTC

Not exactly pain. I have this sensation like I need to swallow constantly. When it is really bad, I also get that feeling (not to be gross) that I am going to regurgitate. When I get that way, it's hard to bend over or even get comfortable. The swallowing, I'm told, is due to the swelling. When it flares up, I lose my voice easily. And of course, I'm supposed to sing & play this weekend. I feel like I might be coming down with a slight cold or something (which always aggravates it) so I started using the Zicam today. It's always something, you know?

:( thaotherprncess September 12 2006, 14:51:12 UTC

aww Shell. I am so sorry. It sucks having something wrong when you don't know what it is or what to do about it. What IS normal? Hopefully these docs will figure out what is up.

<3 ya

Re: :( shellboa67 September 13 2006, 01:49:26 UTC

Normal...yeah...hmmm...I guess I'm not sure anymore. i would settle for feeling good and at least being stable with the voice I have left.

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shellboa67 September 12 2006, 15:59:15 UTC

See this is why I shouldn't even write about it.

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shellboa67 September 13 2006, 01:48:10 UTC

I've just been having an atrocious couple of days with this stuff. Burst out into tears today at work because I told our worship pastor I was taking myself off the schedule until further notice and wouldn't be singing in choir or doing the concerts (which are HUGE here...over 20,000 people see them). The only other time I missed one was when this nonsense started. I know it sounds trivial to others, especially when so many people I love have endured such horrible situations in their lives the last year. I certainly can't compare this to losing a spouse, parent or job, having cancer, getting divorced...you name it. And those things have all hurt me deeply too. I guess music is a second language to me and being unable to sing is gutwrenching emotionally. The good news is, I'll get over it. God will use me in other ways...singing is what I do...it's not who I am...but it just really sucks right now. You know, in the last 10 months I lost a dear friend, my father and now my voice. It just SOUNDS stupid in that lineup, you know?