I want one of those typical love stories that inspires films and poetry, where I can lay in the grass with a cute kid that likes me and is shy about it. I don't want to be the one to follow him and ask questions, I'll just let it all be as it is. He will want me because I'm a crazy kid, and I'll want him for the same reason. I wish I could get my ( Read more... )

Homecoming was actually a lot better than last year, I was relaxed and I didn't have anything to worry about. Cassie, Rachel, Dory and I all went to "dinner" at Dunkin Donuts for that trashy feel, and then went into the ball with high hopes and slight stomach-aches! I didn't have the nerve to ask any guys to dance with me, and it was a little ( Read more... )

Things have been nice and fairly crazy still. I got turned down for homecoming, and I feel like I'm just fucking waiting for something to happen, because if I try to have any say in what I want I'll just fuck things up ( Read more... )

Last Wednesday my mom had a seizeure, she's ok now, but it was the scariest thing I've ever experienced. I had to call 911 and stay on the line. The whole thing has brought a lot of kept emotions to surface, as last night we all cried around the dinner table talking about how fucked up the family is. I'm an asshole who just doesn't give a fuck, my ( Read more... )

I've been noticing that this summer really wasn't as great as I expected, I hardly got to see half of my friends, I stopped calling people, and I devoted all of my time to being liked by a boy.... fuck! It really wasn't horrible or anything, I mean I was having a good time throughout the whole thing, but lately I've just been feeling kinda empty, ( Read more... )

I have a myspace now too, http://www.myspace.com/teenagewhorediary

enjoy!

I still haven't talked to Scott since the unprofessional break-up, and I've just stopped caring about the reasoning behinde it. I hung out with Rob the other day and we watched Party Monster and then Kat and Amiee came, and later on Kelly... It was a lot of fun just running around his basement and laughing, it was just what I needed! I also went to ( Read more... )

Scott and I broke up a little while ago, his reasoning being that he needs to mature in time for college, which makes perfect sense. We're still friends and all, but there probably won't be any chance to penetrate that kid now, which I can also live with :) Things have all been kinda falling back into place since then too, I've had more time to ( Read more... )

Last night I had Inge, Rachel, Elmo & Katie over and we watched Chocolate and Dancer In The Dark, it was really nice to just hang out with my old friends again! Afterwards I went outside and my parents had started a fire, so I sat and stared at the flames for awhile and then went inside and slept! Scott let me know that he's sick, and as a result ( Read more... )

I slept over at Scott's house on Monday night, under false pretenses with my parents, who really thought that I was sleeping at Rob's, and I got away with the whole thing! I got dropped off at Rob's monday afternoon and hung out with him for awhile, and then around six Scott came and picked me up, taking me to his house. I told my mom that Rob and ( Read more... )