Today we took my brother to San Jose to check him in and get ready to leave for boot camp in the morning. I seem to have this habit of staying detached from everything until it's right in my face and something I'm forced to then deal with. I'm really glad I got to spend the day with my brother, but I when it came down to actually saying ( Read more... )

I think I'm still putting to much thought into the wrong things and get caught off guard when I'm let down or disappointed and feel bummed out about it. I had enough of depression when I was younger and really I do whatever I can now to avoid it or do away with it.

Anyhow, fact is that I am moving, one way or another I'm leaving. My life is ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream that was so much fun I would've rather not woken up from it ( Read more... )

Once in awhile I get close to the edge of feeling real again.
I did again tonight, and I know this:

I will most likely never hear the things I want to hear from people.
Also, I will always have to work harder for less.
To add to that, no one gives a shit.

Maybe it's just better to zone out and let everything happen, or maybe I'm missing out.I 

I could sit here and talk about people gathered together on a snowy mountainside, I could talk about bloodshed and fierce battles, I could talk about a group of people who gave it everything they had to make a difference and, no matter what, will never forget each other...

...and it won't mean a thing to anyone reading this, it won't mean a thing ( Read more... )

When your own have died
When there's no more pride
When your soul is frozen
Is that enough?
When your heart is broken
A thousand times
With every moment
Is that enough?

I was made aware of something today that I have suspected for quite some time, but I'd just never had it made so apparent. I didn't show it so much, but it was a decent slap in the face.

One more reason I can't wait to move I suppose.

Around two years ago, I started going through the worst time period of my life. I've never been down so low, and it ( Read more... )

Everyone knows how I feel about 30 Seconds to Mars and probably remembers that phase where I just couldn't stop listening to them ( Read more... )

"I hope I can chill and stay the same

Stop the bleed inside and feel again

Cut the chain of lies you've been feeding my veins

I've got nothing to say to you"

I'm fairly excited at the moment, more excited than I've been letting on. I offered to help do some signs for Forte based on a pre-made template, and the owner liked how they turned out. He's probably going to start tossing graphics work at me for Forte and also said he knew some people who needed a graphic artist that might actually take me on ( Read more... )