i will be in tanzania from august to december.

tired. headache. in love. don't want to talk to anyone. sorry for the people who i need to call. i haven't forgotten about you. i love you all. i just can't really talk about what's going on without crying and my head is throbbing from crying all day and i want to curl up in my bed and sleep until i am thirty ( Read more... )

i'm collecting poetry about suicide for a project for my poetry class and i need poems! do any of you know of any suicide related poetry? any suggestions would be wonderful!

ten forty three on a saturday night and i am spending another night in my room, door closed tight and christmas lights on, listening to music that makes me think of doug while ben is out with his friends and i just don't have the energy to move. my roommate came in the room a few minutes ago to get ready to go out and i snuck out of the room while ( Read more... )

my friend ben from earlham spent two weeks here. we went to the beach and got lost in philly and i showed him the art museum and the rodin museum and south street and the delaware river and when i was at work he and my dad saw the USS New Jersey and they went out to lunch and he and my mom went shopping and i'm really glad he came. he made me miss ( Read more... )

i haven't had many words lately, words to write or to speak or to think. it's strange to feel so blank, so empty. it's been over a year since i've felt so flat. summer used to be a time of life, of smiles and colors and late nights and late mornings and laughing, so much laughing. i don't know what happened to that ( Read more... )

christmas always makes me sad. i get so many things that i don't deserve and the worst part is that people think i deserve them. i feel like i'm lying to everyone ( Read more... )

things at home are weird. my mom likes to make me feel unwelcome ( Read more... )

i withdrew from sweet briar.
i come home tomorrow morning.

i feel so lost.

+ I made all of my old entries private and cut my friends list in half ( Read more... )