I'm alone right now. I've kept to myself when I'm home since the night Sherriy "grounded" me so it's nice to be able to roam around without feeling any discomfort... that was only a few days ago, but the hours are long. I asked Jody if I could go to goodwill when I came home from school, but he made me ask Sherriy. I knew what she was going to do ( Read more... )

Why do I let things get to me so bad? I was feeling really good for 3 or 4 days and then I let everything get to me... I fucking hate how I always let that happen ( Read more... )

I've been feeling pretty neutral since that last entry I made, which is good... there are some bad things going on, though. My brother called, I think the day I made that last entry, and he told me everything that's been going on. My grandpa lied when he said he had stopped drinking this last time, which was only a short while ago. He's been ( Read more... )

I hate the entry I made. I hate everything. I'm not strong. I cant stand anything. I'm a fucking pussy.

~rag doll

I love this song ( Read more... )

We cry for more than an hour together the day you break up with me. You say that your depression is bringing me down, that you can see it, and that you need time apart from me until you get out of the state youre in. I cry so hard that it feels like my whole body is going to collapse. I throw up when you leave, and then again the next day, and ( Read more... )

I am going tanning today.

I have realized my life sucks right now, but it will be wonderful again one day! I am looking forward to the future!

~rag doll

A few nights ago I had a dream about Jared. It was weird. I was here at my house, but it looked like Zach's friend Talese's apartment, and it was snowing. A couple Saturday's ago I was over at her apartment and it was snowing, so I guess that's where that came from. Well, Jared had come over and I was all, "Hey, what are you doing here?" but he ( Read more... )

There have been a couple times this week where I could of made the perfect entry. Short, but sweet... I really wish I would have made those, but the idea for them came to me after I had already had my hour a day online. Sucks, I know ( Read more... )

Baby crying. Sherriy yelling. Jody, Derek, and Jesse huddled around a war game in the living room in front of the T.V. Desiree isolating herself with the computer and a great emo song... this is my life tonight ( Read more... )