You know that saying, "If you cant beat them, join them"? I've begun thinking about that. I dont know if I should stoop down to the level of an average freshman or continue on with how I am now. I want to have a steady relationship with a guy, but it's so hard to find one. Do I keep looking or do I date around? I dont know. I'm so young, so the ( Read more... )

I'm flat out depressed and I have been for a while now... zach and I are broken up because of his own depression, and I'm so patiently waiting for him to get better. I told him I would be there for him, but he told me it would be better if we were apart for now. Seeing me and knowing he cant have me as of yet makes him even more sad. He said this, ( Read more... )

I have the tell tale of a cold coming on. Sore throat, headache, fatigue, dizziness... but none the less, I've had a fantastic day :) School was very long, very boring, very blah blah blah... but I lived through it, I'm home now, and I'm ready to hit the hay after this entry is complete ( Read more... )

2005! Holy fuck! The years sure are flying by ( Read more... )

I am really fucking drunk right now. It's so awesome. I can type just as fast as I can than when I'm sober. I feel so nice.

I really like zach and sam. Theyre so cool. I like them so much.

woah. need to calm down.

I love Haley Corriell.

~rag doll

The house to myself for two days... what is a teenage girl to do? Of course, everything opposite of what she was told by those who worry most ( Read more... )

Zach got back today :) I'm so happy. I missed him so much. We hung out for about 4 hours or so... 2 of which were spent wandering around town in the 30 degree weather. Yeah, FUCKING freezing. And foggy ( Read more... )

I'm actually really excited for once that Christmas is almost here ( Read more... )

I'm getting to the point where I dont care if my grandpa lives or dies, and I bet anything that he's thinking the same thing. He doesnt want to help anyone anymore. He doesnt even want to help himself. He's fucking insane from drinking... he went crazy on my brother last night, and I guess he broke his computer and broke the phone because my aunt ( Read more... )

I am so fucking scared. I have so much hate in me. I'm sick of caring about everyone elses feelings because it makes me vulnerable and gives those people the chance to take advantage of me and treat me like shit ( Read more... )