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i am so unhappy. and i'm not sure why. i mean granted shit happens in life that we can't control but my god, does every piece of shit in the world have to find its way towards me and happen to me? its disgusting. i mean i have a few friends, but no real friends and then i realized that maybe i've never had a real friend in my life. i mean, people ( Read more... )

today was kind of...crappy. i was scanning this ladies stuff today and my finger got caught on the box, and ripped a little bit. then it bled kind of fast and i had to shut down my register while a supervisor came over and more or less treated me like i had some life threatening infectious disease that she was going to get if she stood within a few ( Read more... )

today was pretty...blah. i dunno. i just dont understand things are people. work is good i guess. i'm not behind in school anymore so that's good. i've realized that i'm not that lonely anymore. i have some pretty good friends. that's all. i got my first paycheck for that one day i went to orientation...33 dollars and four cents. hahahaha... twas ( Read more... )

right now i don't have any "friends" i mean. i want to just pick up the phone and talk to someone and all that jazz but i can't. i mean i don't have my own friends anymore. They're all someone else's friends. its weird. i have no comfort zone anymore. it's sad to think about, i feel alone sometimes but i know that things will get better. but again ( Read more... )

today i had work and it was pretty alright. my discount sucks. but the people working there are pretty nice so i can't complain. i did see the guy with fake legs, he was rather goodlooking and you could tell that before whatever accident that occured that he was a tall man. its kind of late so i really should be going to bed. i have this thing for ( Read more... )

for some reason i feel the urge to go on a drive. my mom isn't here. I dont know where i'm going to go. i just need to get out somewhere and i dunno. i really want to watch the sunrise but its far to early for that. i'm going to leave at 4:00 a.m. and i'm probably going to take my sister with me so she isn't scared shitless. just a little drive. ( Read more... )

in the last few weeks some shitty things have more or less made their way towards me. and im dealing with them in such a way, its kind of odd. things dont even piss me off anymore and despite a lot of bullshit that has gone on. i'm still happy. which is good. i broke my toe today which sucks. i am going to orientation at target tomorrow. should be ( Read more... )

i talked to ashley today. in person. it really helped a lot. i'm glad that i got the chance to talk to her. so there's no misunderstanding. its just that now im pretty much telling my mom to layoff. its really annoying how she can be. well i have to go.

its not that hard. i'm doing better. i'm happy in a way. i have to go to english class today. i didn't do my essay. grrr...im screwed. the last month hasn't been that great. but you know what. things can only get better. I'm just going to look forward and try to find more good things in life than things that hang me up. there's too much going on in ( Read more... )