these past few days feel like im just sitting there and everyone is swarming around me in high speed. like im the zombie ( a la zach braff in garden state).

Her death has changed me a lot. I look out the window now and see her everyday in the sunlight.

Its like I dont know what time or day it is. All i know is shes gone and will never come back.

there are so many things in my head overwhelming my days, but at the same time im filled with emptiness and a want to just give it all up. Little things like driving and picking up clothing, or even brushing my teeth feel like impossible tasks. Im not exactly sure as to why but i just want it to stop. I feel like im so taken by what are supposed to ( Read more... )

i dont give a flying fuck about anything or anyone anymore.o ya and im the biggest ive ever been in my life.COOL.

its pretty much the same ( Read more... )

does anyone know of any good shopping in portland? or  streets? anything? flea markets?

-thanks in advance.

im fat. i dont have one friend. i im an abstinent drug addict. i havent had a cigarette in three days.  im always tired. i hate everyone but am so lonely. i dont want to pretend anymore. ive pushed all those away that loved me and all those i let love me abandon me. im lonely. im an idiot and im fat. i cant change being an idiot, but i CAN not eat ( Read more... )

why is it then when im at my fattest i have two guys that are disturbingly OBSESSED with me. i hate it. i dont understand it. i want them to go away.

...come back when im skinny...then maybe ill be good enough to love

um ya i havent been on in centuries. i relapsed and shit and my mom thinks im making deals through the internet. if i relapse again im going to inpatient, which means they start weighing you to make sure you are gaining weight. if i gain anymore weight i will be a blimp ( Read more... )

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