ughh taylor and i are really out of our minds, but only in the life threatening non productive, gaining nothing out of it way, which for me is far more acceptable than the out of your mind so you have to write deep dark poetry and paint shit and ponder the sky way. i'm glad though. him jumping out of my car at 27 miles an hour showed true ( Read more... )

my mom is gone until friday. taylor and i cleaned my house yesterday, and it oesn't look disgusting anymore. taylor made a really good song yesterday too. it's about the ocean water oh it put out the fire it was one you never saw, i understand not a word you said too busy hanging on the words you said, whaoa-slimy things and ghostly beings around ( Read more... )

there are boys who fight other boys and there are girls who hate other girls and there are mothers and fathers who can't stand each other and there are times where i don't feel mine and there are days when i forget all reasons to stay and there are pages in notbooks that never became filled up and there are minutes of hours we wasted on others and ( Read more... )

i feel so sad right now and not okay and i'm in a little ball and i'm in front of my computer and i feel so sad and i haven't moved for a long long time and i swear i'll get huge if i do this too much and i feel horrible and your stupid cell phone cut out, i didn't hang up on you, but i'm not sure if i care which you think anyway since you didn't ( Read more... )

so currently, i am on the phone with an asleep (and snoring!) taylor. i could turn my head slightly to the left and loudly static the phone, or press numbers, or say taylor shoogleboogle wakeup!, but im way too into this grape popsicle to be making any decisions of that sort and i figure that by the time there's nothing left but a wooden craft ( Read more... )

actually, everyone is pretty lonely when i think about it. i wish i could have spent time with taylor today but when i talked to him on the phone an hour ago, all he really told me was that he wastes my time and ruins my life. all i could say is "that's not true". i wanted to do something nice for him for his birthday, and i thought it would be fun ( Read more... )

i'm not up to driving over to lockmar and sneaking taylor out tonight. i don't know why, i usually always am. i wish he were allowed to call me so i could have told him i didnt want to. i cant even think of a good reason. its not the drive, really. it's just the stressyness of tip-toeing through his yard to his window and worrying and then having ( Read more... )

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