i dont know who reads this shit anymore. . i hope noone. because i just need to write this down. and get it out. i feel like im poisoned and i need to vent.
the past month ive been feeling the fade. it happens. but then the other day my hope was re-gathered and i felt happy again. erin and i broke up and i decided to open the letter i wrote to ( Read more... )

funny how i am actually going through with quitting smoking.
(only bc my life was threatened, on top of my relationship)
i guess you have to be pushed off your high-horse and get trampled for a bit
--before you realize what needs to be done.--

stress-free.
smoke-free.
now just gimme love.

moving out by monday.
clean break from everyone i guess.

im in need of a great escape.

im looking for apartments =)
i need to live either alone, or kyle munson will be my roomie.

this is my plan.
open bank account next month.
get a credit card.
build my credit.
move out anywhere from march-may.

live in arvada.louiseville.westminster.or aurora.

i can do this.
i need this and ive never felt so motivated in my life.

im sick of not being able to trust people. i guess thats how it is though ( Read more... )

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its the end of november ( Read more... )

last night was just another friday. party with a bunch of bros at kyles. matt and jenna got into a car accident on their way to kyles. 108th and wads. spun out into a ditch. (sober)by the way. najda and i spent a few hours with them in the hospital keeping them company. jenna had a few x rays done on her neck and watching her shake from her nerves ( Read more... )

i hate being here. when its quiet i put music on to drown out the silence.

i do laundry non-stop.

i need a nap every afternoon.

the only positive thing going every day is waking up to erins kiss.

my "bestfriend" lies to me.

i cant afford a make over so i pretend i have things that will make me feel pretty.

im sick of going to look in my wallet and ( Read more... )