for petes sake. just open your heart and follow through .

please prove me right that people are worth a second chance.

i think everything is working out for me lately, because i gave up trying for it. funny how that happens ( Read more... )

 its finally about to happen. im going to live in an apartment. completely independent from friends giving me a place to stay, from family helping me with free rent. moving at the end of this month. i think living between najdas and kyles just gave me more motivation to live in my own place ( Read more... )

 i should care what people think about me. but i dont. 
kyle always questions why im ridding people out of my life when i once cared about them so much.
my defense was simple.
they suck. and i refuse to surround myself with people who:
lie.
flake out.
are two faced and rely on gossip to support drama.
have high egos.

its simple right? its my life. and i do ( Read more... )

 ladies. never lurk ( Read more... )

im so in love with him. 
the kind of love thats comfortable.safe.

its back. and hes back in my life.
im ok with life again and pretty sure its all thanks to him.

its different than last time.
this time its us just being us. hanging out and playing off of where the day takes us.

i hated missing him.
and he came back to ME.

and let me just tell you. i have ( Read more... )

how about this:

this year will not fucking consist of me spending my time trying to be the best i can for someone else. and still be let down in the end.

im living for me.
booyyaaaa

 d e l e t e d e l e t e d e l e t e.

it feels good.

i need to do a few things ( Read more... )

i only write on here when my thoughts keep me up.
ive lost so much sleep the past two weeks, i actually become so into it that im deliriously insane.
kinda fucked up.
ive been ultimately hurt with this whole break up.
knowing i was extremely happy and with in 20 mins, my happiness was crushed into a ball and thrown out of the car window somewhere ( Read more... )