i can pretend like last night never happened too if that's what you're going to do...

but you were intoxicated which i wasn't so at least you have an excuse to back up your bull shit lies.  i just look like an idiot...

 Let's sail away
Find our own country
We'll build a house and beds out of palm trees
Let's get away
Let's push our lives aside

I'll sport a smile
Take in some color
Under the stars
I'll be your lover
With no distractions I'm gonna treat you right

Well it seems like things are only getting better
Well   it   seems   like   we   can   never   catch   a   break

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someone is creepin' my live journal...

dear said person:

i'm well aware  of who you are.  i can kind of narrow it down based on how you type and what you commented on.  what is this?  junior high?  if you have something to say then say it and don't be afraid to tell me that it's you.  you had to know i would know it was you... this is where i write ( Read more... )

 divide your body.  show me something.  you can be two places at once.  i've been two people at the same time too.  that proves that it can happen.  you have no idea where my mind is.  don't act like you know.  i've prentended as well as i could but i don't care enough anymore.  i'm moving forward.  i'm moving on.  it was something for as long as ( Read more... )

 night hours on some random holiday.  why did we even celebrate?  but i can't complain.  still remembering the cool air sneaking in the windows.  brushing our cheeks, rose pink and it shows.  i'll take the wheel, because you need me, because you wanted it this way.  i'm driving your car,  you...intoxicated. you can't resist bringing your lips to ( Read more... )

where was  your head when my heart was in your hands?

dear you: 
stop texting me at random hours of the night giving me false hopes telling me you want to see me and saying you don't understand why you haven't been able to for the last...umm i dunno??? 4 months! when i try with you, you run away. you talk a lot but you never do what you say. you told me to stop being so "tough" all of the sudden... i'm ( Read more... )

i’ve been known to make mistakes, to run my mouth, sper of the moment, when i honestly thought i felt that way. do you know how many people are in your shoes? i can’t pick and choose. win or lose, maybe i’m not worth the bruises. my emotions are so insincere. i’m a loner, baby, just leave me here. i’ve voiced it over and over loud and clear: don’t ( Read more... )

spinning out of control.
spinning.
spinning.
spinning.
spinning.

i guess all i have left to do is brace myself...
and wait for the impact.

my mind is fast-paced. there is so much going on inside me...too much.

but the world around me is so still.

i can't do this...i'm sorry.