You did good babes, you did what was right for you despite how difficult it was. You don't deserve to be used by a gimp. You deserve better than to be picked up and used like a toy.
I think it hurts because it's familiar, and like you said before because it's easy. You already know it'd be simple to turn around and allow him to use you like that, you may even manage to convince yourself that your enjoying it. That you've missed him, that a few stolen moments to scratch at that itch won't leave you smarting later.
But you're above that now, you passed the hardest hurdle and you came out of the other side. You showed him that you won't allow him to use you like 'his personal whore'. And though i know its smarting right now, i'm proud of you and i love you.
And if i lived closer i'd so totally kick his ass, for coming there and doing that too you and making you feel like this, because you don't deserve it.
He's a gimp, and like all gimps he doesn't deserve the joy of ur presences.
Gimp..I like that word. For the longest time I accepted being a toy, his toy, and that night was just like my breaking point. You are completely right, I would probably convince myself that it felt good, it was good for me and oh so easy.
Oh but it would leave me smarting and hurting. I hope that was the hardest hurdle..because if they get higher or harder I won't be able to jump them anymore.
*Sniff* I love you soooo much right now! You don't have any idea how much your words mean to me at this moment. I wish you did live closer not only for the benefit if having his ass kicked but to have my other half here damn it!!! *passes over some super secret junk food, and scoots closer to cuddle up*
P.S. I hope your movie goes well with Adam. ^-^ Face to Face interaction if often as you said more awkward than phone or text. You actually have to take the fact that he is probably looking at your face going, "God how can she be this beautiful and intelligent?" Or thats what he should be thinking. So ha!
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I think it hurts because it's familiar, and like you said before because it's easy. You already know it'd be simple to turn around and allow him to use you like that, you may even manage to convince yourself that your enjoying it. That you've missed him, that a few stolen moments to scratch at that itch won't leave you smarting later.
But you're above that now, you passed the hardest hurdle and you came out of the other side. You showed him that you won't allow him to use you like 'his personal whore'. And though i know its smarting right now, i'm proud of you and i love you.
And if i lived closer i'd so totally kick his ass, for coming there and doing that too you and making you feel like this, because you don't deserve it.
He's a gimp, and like all gimps he doesn't deserve the joy of ur presences.
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Oh but it would leave me smarting and hurting. I hope that was the hardest hurdle..because if they get higher or harder I won't be able to jump them anymore.
*Sniff* I love you soooo much right now! You don't have any idea how much your words mean to me at this moment. I wish you did live closer not only for the benefit if having his ass kicked but to have my other half here damn it!!! *passes over some super secret junk food, and scoots closer to cuddle up*
P.S. I hope your movie goes well with Adam. ^-^ Face to Face interaction if often as you said more awkward than phone or text. You actually have to take the fact that he is probably looking at your face going, "God how can she be this beautiful and intelligent?" Or thats what he should be thinking. So ha!
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