Has it really been a year and a half? Wow. So much has happened I actually don’t know where to begin. How much has really changed and how much has really stayed the same ( Read more... )

Sleep why must you elude me ( Read more... )

Okay so now I have some new and exciting news, and it has nothing to do with Charlie…can we say YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY ( Read more... )

And so it is Christmas. I feel like screaming bullshit at the top of my lungs. Now in addition to officially hating Valentine’s Day, I can add Christmas to the list…actually I think I will add the entire month of December. I suppose it’s not like I didn’t get good gifts this year, although few in number, I got a new fourth generation Ipod touch and ( Read more... )

I hate it that when I update this journal I never have anything positive to say. But I suppose very few people actually write when they are happy. Writing is a release, be it of mania, sadness, depression, anger. Most people don’t want to release happiness, they want to hold on to it, seeing as it is rather rare these days ( Read more... )

So, he messaged me. He actually fucking messaged me. Like the next day after I messaged him. You could have like…knocked my ass out with a stick I was so shocked. He actually IMed me instead of messaging or emailing me back. He asked how I was doing, and told me all about how things are going in his life right now. I specifically avoided talking ( Read more... )

I miss him. I actually miss that incredible asshole. It’s not something I ever thought I would say, let alone admit. I miss the way he used to put my hand on his heart when I would please him. I miss the way when he did kiss me it was like he was engulfing me. I miss the sounds he would make during. I miss the way he would grab my hand in the night ( Read more... )

and still probably not managed to get out all the anger and resentment I still feel. Charlie has managed to blow me off for seven days and completely ignore me the past three. He was supposed to come by and give me the oil change money he owed me for helping drive him around for over six hours to get his new car. Never showed. I was stupid and got ( Read more... )

"With this ring I vow my love, to always be a faithful, loving wife and old lady.." "With this ring I vow my love, and promise to cherish and always protect you. To treat you as good as my leather and ride you as much as my Harley." - Sons of Anarchy. For The Win.

Jackson Teller and I are meant to be...

I am so angry right now I don’t know whether to punch something or just sit here and cry. I feel like such a fucking moronic imbecile. Last weekend Charlie messages me and says all this stuff about let’s hang out, and like an idiot I believed him. I got all hyped about actually getting out of the house until Saturday at like 4pm he messages me on ( Read more... )