Mom died on the 10th.  It was a Thursday, just like dad.  She knew it was the end.  She waved bye bye to me in her little Jinny way because she could no longer speak ( Read more... )

Alabama.  Well, the good thing is that I didn't go for any kind of relaxation or to sort my head out.  Actually, I went because my recent issues with my daughter have made me see my own issues with my mother clearer.  She was 45 when I wrote her life off after dad died... I was very selfish and didn't see that she had such a terrible burden and was ( Read more... )

Have a lot to say, but really haven't been saying it. Why? Because I don't HAVE to anymore. I am in a really good way considering the whole thing. My whole life isn't Gerry anymore and everyday I get further and further away from that old life and I'm ok with it. At least right now, and I think that when it gets to me again I'll be writing. But ( Read more... )

Little tid bits from Lucie --

Men only listen to the first eleven words.

QTIP - Quit Taking It Personally

Thank goodness I had this place to dump all my thoughts.

Have to talk about things...

And then all the sudden I want to barf because of all the stuff that is going on. I just can't see how we got here....

It's the lies... realizing all those lies that he's told me... all those lies...

Breathe (2 AM ( Read more... )

He seems just short of completely normal. He came to meet me for lunch and he was sweet, The subject of Mexico has come up and he hasn't said anything. He's been downright nice. But he's still off and even if he became normal again, I don't think I ever will be agian...

But it still hurts. It hurts and I try not to think about it. but it creeps in.....