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confused
I don’t understand. What am I doing wrong? Is this numb feeling between Ben and I just a symptom of our exhaustion from work and school combined?
What happened to the guy who called me his firefly and wanted to go an adventure with me? I don’t want to be his empty room and I’m sure he wouldn’t want the same of me. But what do I do in these moments ( Read more... ) -
Little Things
My mother's voice is much too loud in my ear. She is telling me to stay where I am, to keep my mouth shut, and let the cards fall where they may. He's a doctor, he'll take care of me. But he can't just lay with me and I don't want to be his sexy baby. I just want a friend who happens to love me too ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Youthful Transgressions
I regret my self-evaluation of ruin.I regret acting upon this self-evaluation, and letting everyone else have the best of me and leaving nothing for myself.
But thats okay, because you can always start over again, which is what I'm doing now. Fuck you guys for taking me for granted. Thank you Baby, for reminding me of what I can be. -
Magic City Writer's Meeting
I got the critique back for my first chapter of my sci fi story...and the results weren't good ( Read more... ) -
Flashbacks
I haven't so much built my life as let it fall around me. What happens, happens. That's not what I'm talking about here in this blog, however. I'm talking about what happens when someone comes out of your past, someone you weren't expecting to come back and asks you if you want to try again.
I've moved past them in my life... but it's not like the ( Read more... ) -
Doris Day can go fuck herself.
So I've got a question for everybody. Why is it that when I have sex with who I want to - I get flack from all around, but they guys that I sleep with seem to be able to walk around with their heads held high?
Why am I the scarlet woman? Why is there no such thing as a scarlet man? This is fucked up, I am telling you. -
It is Time
It is no one else's job to make your dreams come true.
I got a rude awakening last night... what can happen to you when you give up, really, on everything. It scared the shit out of me. I don't want that to happen to me.
Here is to living in the moment, to planning for the future, and ( Read more... ) -
Need To Know Basis
I played an open mic show last night. It was a nightmare. It was horrendous. It was the worst experience I've had on stage since high school when I had to fake dance to backstage so I could vomit without arousing suspicion from the audience ( Read more... ) -
Being Wobbly
So, I'm a little like Lorelai Gilmore when it comes to romance. When I get a hold of something good in my hands - not just hot and yummy but "oh my god i can't believe it's real butter" kinda somethin - I have this knee jerk reaction that is kind of anti-climactic. In layman's terms, I bow out. I know that makes me a cop out, especially when I ( Read more... ) -
Today Is Beautiful
I'm sitting here at my sis's place. It's been a beautiful day, not a cloud in the sky. We went tanning and swimming - I got a little browner. Right now the baby is taking a nap, my sister is making tuna salad sandwiches just the way we like it (with apples and relish, you gotta try it). There's good music on the radio - not that annoying crap that ( Read more... )