Can I do this? Can I force this entry? I dunno, but I'm ready to give an attempt. I'm still too numb for any sort of real emotion to be a part of it though.

( But let's give it a try )

A lot has happened in the course of the past 4 days. I have to do an entry about it. It's necessary. I can't right now though. I want to so badly, but can't get into. I feel so numb to everything. So in retrospect, I'm also feeling frustration...frustration that I can't feel more. I gotta get this shite out at some point, because it's poisionous. I ( Read more... )

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met ( Read more... )

Just close your eyes. Everything will be okay...

i feel empty inside ( Read more... )

As previously stated, I let the little things get the best of me. There's nothing like puking to end a perfectly shitty night! Stressed induced nausea..dandy ( Read more... )

It's currently 8:44p.m. I just noticed I had a missed call. Unavailable at 8:09p.m. Generally unavailable is Zach calling from work. He's not home yet. He gets out of work at 8:00p.m. A big part of me assumes the missed call was Zach. Based on that assumption, I'm led to more assumptions about why he would be calling. Maybe he went out with a ( Read more... )

HA...he deleted all of the pics of just me and him from his MySpace page. BUT he did not delete group pics, or all the dandy pictures taken of him by me. LMAO Yet another example of how petty he is...but at the same time so self serving. Imagine that ( Read more... )

I have like 298347 pages worth of updates just from the past 3 weeks of my life. Surprisingly enough, most of it is good stuff. I don't think I'll get into that just yet though..if ever. The bad is weighing heavy, so I'll let some of that out. ..in typical Jess fashion. Ranting is what I'm best at, eh ( Read more... )

A cloud rested over the sun, easing the burning sensation of the rays on my bear arms. It will be setting soon. The wind blew mighty like that of an oncoming storm ( Read more... )