I leave for Amsterdam Tomorrow.
I sold everything to pay for a plane ticket
And rent for my flat.
I'm running away.

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♥ ¤ September ¤ ♥

I'm in a horribly low place.
I can't get away from my own misery.
Someone save me.

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♥ September

So I can go to sleep or die
because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
you like it, too, and I can tell.
You never stop until
my final breath is gone.

Spare me THREE last words.
"I LOVE YOU" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

♥ September

I have finally decided to what to do with my broken self.

I am too far worn to be repaired.
It it not worth it.

And so I shall just throw myself away.

You can find me in the gutter,
First door to the right.

♥

Life is becoming a blur of sorts.
Things fall in and out of place almost constantly,
As if the world mean to spin me around
just as it spins itself.
There is a force that pulls it;
and a force that pulls me.
This is called fate.

( Pictures from Saturday's photoshoot )

Fade in

START THE SCENE

Enter a beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world

"Excuse me sir,
But I had plans to die tonight
Oh and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right."

My reply
"Excuse me miss ( Read more... )

I am broken.

I have been broken for years,
never working properly,
but working, to say the least.

But I suppose even the best brand of batteries don't last forever.

And broken doesn't ever fix itself.

Throw me away or send me to be repaired?

I'm still deciding.

♥ September

Quick Update.

+ I'm currently figuring out my FALL schedule.
+ I applied to a few places for a second job.
+ I've been smoking less.
+ I've not been going out much, except during the day with Matthew & Bree.
+ I ♥ Blow.
+ I got really drunk at Brandy's Party Friday night.
+ I pimped out my old myspace today at work.
+ I have a photoshoot Saturday ( Read more... )

When I do wake up, there is no storm left. The world outside the private exposure of these windows is sunny, bright.

Alive.

There are real people in the streets, crowding and rushing, everyone fighting for his tiny share of sunlight before it’s gone.
Before they’re gone.
I wake up and everything is normal. The phone isn’t ringing, there’s no one at ( Read more... )

I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far away from where I've been
I got my eggs, I got my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but youI break the yolks and make a smiley face ( Read more... )