Heartbreak

[shi_illegitima]

I just do not know ... how to do this. I have no idea. I think I do not fully realize the extent of the disaster yet, because he has been gone since the beginning of October so I had plenty of time missing him already.

I wanted to know what has become of him rather than the uncertainty, but now that I come to think of it, it might have proven to be

Comments

[meilliyon_]

Oh sweety, I'm so so sorry. I for Aswan is happy with you as her owner, let people not tell you different. Let yourself not tell you different. You're not worthless, you should not jump off a building. I'm here for you.

*hug*

[yaymatt]

oh my god. i would never get over it. that hole in my heart would never heal.

[shi_illegitima]

I think you are not supposed to 'get over it', that looks too much like not caring anymore. In that sense, I am in a masochistic kind of way 'glad' I feel the pain. Because it means he is still with me, it is proof of how much he meant to me.

It should be getting 'better' with the time, though. Which isn't happening yet. If something, it is getting worse.

Now at least I know for sure I will never have a human baby. If not for all other considerations, the sheer horror of the idea how it must be when you lose one will prevent it well.

[sanneke]

Het spijt me heel erg hoe alles is gegaan en ik leef mee met je verlies.
Jij en Wru verdienden dit niet.
Maar geef jezelf niet de schuld, je kunt hier niets aan doen.
Ik vind het echt verschrikkelijk voor je!