I am nanxy,a and i'm stupid rihg6 nowwrighy whatever I 3nt! rigt what we say.,5 beers rght now an the pen lock i'm sure make the pan go away my boyfriend cheatng on me..... , om demoa;/// mu bnpyuf4imde htes is dkung serrean and he's ognn abreajk ith me, and thren i'm going to e alcholic and misspel wrverythin adn donnie worhsiper and he's nothig ( Read more... )

I'm not who I was anymore... I'm so unreliable... so self absorbed... so depressed.

I'm so lost nowadays. So confused, so drunk.... I dont have any goals... I dont have any real dreams... I honestly feel like I dont want anything. I want to sit here, and just... feel sad.

Its like I dont want to be happy.

What I want most in the world, is to make ( Read more... )

I think I have a hangover. I feel sick, yet still drunk... ha ( Read more... )

So... Jay's been back since yesterday morning. =)

Jay rambling as usual:

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Yesterday was weird. O_o ( Read more... )

Jay's gone.

Hmph. Although I can't seem to stop thinking about this, it hasn't affected me emotionally. Like, I thought for sure that the minute that he left I would cry, or hold onto him for a long time, but it was more like...

Him: Hugs?
Me: *hugs him while wondering if Nanette is up*
Him: *laughs* You act like its going to be forever!
Me: O.o ( Read more... )

Um... ha, first HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

Mines was strange.

What I remember:

- Started drinking at about 7:30 (realized drinking slowly gets you more drunk *cough*)
- Laughing hysterically for no apparent reason
- Telling everyone about my man problems ( Read more... )

Here I am. Awake. My usual sleeping time 9 - 10 pm, yet I haven't been able to sleep a bit. Why?

Well... its a bit silly really.

Jay has a new friend. This girl Serena.

He tells me he doesn't like her, but he thinks she's hott. The way he said it, the body language he used, told me he was lying ( Read more... )

So, I had a wonderful time with my family ( Read more... )

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ( Read more... )