I am reversing my life. Its gotten too bad. Jill was bad about atleast one thing, ive become a creature that does nothing but love. As useful as this is in helping ppl about love its useless in my goal to achieve love. Its gotten so bad that love is more important to me now than video games. Anyone who knows me knows that that is almost blasphemy. ( Read more... )

i was wrong about something so simple... all i had to do was flip the page and know what i needed...

My heart is a silly thing i believe, for so long without knowing I've been disconected. I could hear its calls echoing throughout my body, shouting what it needed but like echos are want to be, its source was out of my grasp. One day wandering about the depths of the cavernous catacombs of my soul I was reaquainted with my heart and stairing up at ( Read more... )

121 Question Myspace Survey ( Read more... )

it ocurs to me that i dunno how to make this small XD ( Read more... )

A;lright so had a 8 hour closing shift at work (lame>.<) and everyone was really upset! the customers i mean they were just downright mad! they threw things at me! XD. but got through the day came home (oh and kathleen wore a blue bra just thought id point that out as an inside joke that only i understand XD) and my aunts new 6 week old puppy ( Read more... )

I am still in quite the good mood >O had some turmoil before having several girls i was interested in and not knowing which one, and at the same time scolding myself because if i cant choose that means i dont have enough in me for any of em, however i think i know what im doing now lol who cares if I succeed ^_^ lets just let luck and chance have a ( Read more... )

lol its everything girls always want right? her knight in shining armor atop his gallant steed come to save her and live happily ever after. ^_^ its what ive always wanted too, except i wanted to BE that knight :P So now here i go. lol Im rediculously happy probably just from being freed from my 5 year depression, I say 5 cause mary was just a ( Read more... )

I think now, absolutely, without a doubt i can be sure that everything happens for a reason. Unexplainably as though everything ive been through everything i know and have strived to know has come to become critical at this moment. Now my years of viewing things from afar and seeking to understand every nuance of possibility and reason for the ( Read more... )

more and more lately i feel myself drawn into myself into a sharp tight little iron ball, rimmd with anger and hatred. I despise almost all those about me, my life is a nightmare that keeps me up at night. I feel no hope no longing other than to end it. Its hard... i think even if anyone did care, i wouldnt care that they did. my dreams are ( Read more... )