Okay, I have been writing this for a while because I was offline for a while after getting back from the party in Batavia, so I had saved all this ( Read more... )

I am getting ready to head to NY to the Krys and Urky Experience Part DUH, lol...I am still really nervous, even though I know that I have no reason to be. These are people I have known for years, and a good chunk of them are family to me. But I am still feeling the shyness starting to well up inside and I am almost shaking, although if that is ( Read more... )

Well, I am finally going to get a chance to meet people I have considered family for years . I am going on vacation to my sissy Krys and brother urky's and there is going to be a big party there in Batavia, NY. I am really nervous. I have known these people to talk to for years but to actually meet them makes me really scared. I am a very shy ( Read more... )

Got offered a job today that I was offered once before, for a company called Primerica. They are a branch of CitiCorp, a really big financial services company(you heard of CitiBank? That is one of their divisions.) I have the appointment for an interview on Monday at 1. And man, am I nervous! I want this job so bad because I would be making massive ( Read more... )

Rejoined my space today. The last time I was on there, it was under an email I know longer have access to, so it made it a TAD difficult to do anything with it. So i rejoined ( Read more... )

Well, will wonders never cease...One of my so-called "friends" got pissed at me because she only heard half the story of a minor conflict between me and a friend, and NOW she is even more pissed because she thinks it was me that narced this guy off to his boyfriend about cheating, and it turns out that it was not even me that said anything! His ( Read more... )

I am at present looking for a new job, just so I can get some more money together for the business startup. Gods, I hate job hunting! But I have to bite the bullet and actually try to get one quick ( Read more... )

I detest waiting. Waiting for anything..it bugs me...but right now it really annoys me. Waiting for my roommate to move out is over..all his shit is finally out, just waiting for him to sign the papers and get out of our faces. Finally stopped waiting for my little brother to find out the fucking bastard is cheating on him, too. i told him. I got ( Read more... )

i wish I could understand why they have to pretend. I truly care about them, all of them, and about the things that happen to them, and they all do such a good job of pretending, but none of them feel the same way...no wonder I feel so alone all the time. I am not good enough for anyone...