shiootshnit

tonight...tonight.

shiootshnit Aug 18, 2012 04:03

i go back to classes monday. i am sure i am fully prepared, but i feel like i need two more weeks ( Read more... )

i make the mistake of hitting back without copying what i typed. what i just said, i can't get back, and we'll leave it at that. i remember - but it's not as quite as poetic. it's just not what i was in the moment about. it really isn't the same.

i'll try...

i was mentioning that people don't care particularly if you're happy. only hardships seem to ( Read more... )

so i suppose...

shiootshnit Jul 28, 2012 04:21

just before james posted his update about previous livejournal posts, i had written a rant. a brief rant about religion. i suppose that his post about livejournal inspired me to make my first post in year or so.

i've written a lot, but not here. it's sad...i don't write for release like i used to. i also suppose that mayhaps many of the questions i ( Read more... )

cross posting this from my myspace.

shiootshnit Mar 27, 2010 11:37

where do i begin? i was thinking of beginning where i ended up at a castle, but that's been a few weeks ago, now. i feel the story may be better told in person...

i'm feeling enlightened. perhaps the "3rd times a charm" may be true, and i am embarking on it in this very moment. since i was very young, i've lived in fear, ( Read more... )

inferno

shiootshnit Aug 16, 2009 06:41

listening for the song of this voice
longing, starving.
my heart creeps to the beat of thoughts
bouncing in my mind.
the anxiety shakes me,
it won't release me.
bruising my ego,
penetrating me.

traveling my spine,
cervical, thoracic, lumbar,
inferno, purgatorio, paradiso.

between the skin,
i can feel the hell swallow me within.
my hands no longer those of ( Read more... )

lynnja

so i says...

shiootshnit Jul 31, 2009 15:40

to him, i says, "i really miss being 17. i didn't give a shit about anything, but living life."

time passing is so fast approaching always, that it takes someone you used to spend every second with to remind you of the good times. i really have no regrets, and the only shred of regret i do hold is that i can't live it all over again. why regret the ( Read more... )

i wish...

shiootshnit Jun 12, 2009 06:13

that i would stop crying when i get intoxicated. that i would just get over it. that i wouldn't care if someone that was completely oblivious to who i am...called me names, but you know...i am a female, a human being, a fucking person...and why shouldn't i be upset about the decay of the human race? why shouldn't i be upset that the one i love was ( Read more... )

so... now what?

shiootshnit Jun 09, 2009 22:44

on sunday i turned 23. that equals 10 years i've had a livejournal. most hit 23, and they say to themselves, "why the fuck do i need this thing anymore?" i don't really see it that way. i say, why not keep it? i have no good reason to delete it in the first place.

i have some real issues with 23 that i'd like to nullify/

1/ i've gotten fat. this ( Read more... )

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shiootshnit Apr 22, 2009 12:50

a highlight of my very uninteresting life ( Read more... )

i'm on a roll.

shiootshnit Nov 20, 2008 03:39

we've all lost our minds.
it's official.

there is no reality. some in between.

fucking matrix.